So it’s been a while since I’ve posted.. I’ve worked on a few things, but haven’t gotten around to finishing them. This one however has continually pulled me back in.
It was prompted by this song by Natalie Grant, “More Than Anything.”
It started me down a path wherein I became keenly aware of the thankfulness I now hold for the “thorn in my flesh.” For the very thing that robbed me of everything good in my life. For who I was, because I got to see who He is!
To many, you may not understand the why in how I could be thankful for the destructive path I was on. To others, you may very well have walked a similar path, and this will resonate with you. Whichever side you fall on… I pray that this will help you view your “thorn” in a much different way.
Before my “thorn”… I was living a life that was unfulfilled, always yearning for “more.” I had a beautiful life, yet I was so discontent. I had a hole.. one that seemed so deep that there was absolutely nothing that could fill it.It wasn’t until I was in a very desperate place, the darkest place, where I cried out to the only one that could rescue me. It was in that moment that the hole finally was being filled.
So many of us just wish for our temptations or trials to be removed. For life to be “easy.” If it was… how would we ever realize our desperate need for him? If our heart was never in a place of complete desperation… how would we experience the unexplainable peace that comes from walking with Him?
To this day, that thorn, the one that robbed me of absolutely everything good, has kept me close to my savior.
It has helped me want the savior.. more than the saving.
The healer, more than the healing.
The giver, more than the giving.
Jesus…. more than anything!!
Thankful for my 2 years of sobriety! Thankful for the freedom I have from the power that thorn had in my life!! Because of Christ!!
6. For though I would desire to glory, I shall not be a fool; for I will say the truth: but now I forbear, lest any man should think of me above that which he seeth me to be, or that he heareth of me.
7. And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.
8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.