I find myself in this rut over and over. Stuck on an island of discontentment.
Wishing things were different. My job, my parental role, my relationship status, the amount of time I have to serve…. I the list goes on and on.
These last few days it has been my parental role and my relationship status where discontentment has made a home for itself. These two things are something I struggle with more than anything else when it comes to being content. But during the holidays it’s just… harder. A lot harder!!
It’s not something I’m use to. I’m use to a house full of children with Ken by my side.
Comparison aggravates these feelings. To see others living what I once had… just makes me.. well jealous. Angry. Regretful. Sad.
You get the idea.
During times like these, God continues to remind me of a few things that help me to snap out of the pity party I’ve thrown for myself…..
1. You’re discontent because you’re self focused!
Did you see all of those “My, My, My’s” at the beginning of this post? If I was kingdom focused, all of these thoughts and feelings would be non-existent. When I am self-focused, there will ALWAYS be some part of my life I will be unhappy with.
2. This IS where God has me.
He has me in THIS place. I may have chosen the path I am on, because of choices I made in the past; but he has also chosen to keep me walking this path. This is HIS will for MY life in THIS moment.
3. Do not compromise.
Oh man!! It would be so easy to. However, I’ve been outside of Gods will far too many times by making compromises and have suffered the consequences.
One thing I’ve repeatedly told myself since I’ve heard it… “It is better to NOT HAVE what you WANT, then to HAVE what you DON’T WANT!!”
Get that?! I’m so thankful that He has helped me to stay steadfast in the convictions He has given me in relation to any potential mate!
4. HE IS ENOUGH!!!
(I know, I know. We’ve already covered this in previous posts. I’m sorry if I’m starting to sound like a broken record.)
He most certainly is enough!! It is the devil who plays on my desires, my dreams, my wants. He knows me even better than I know myself, therefore He knows exactly how to “distract me.” It is the king of lies that allows me to believe that God’s Love isn’t enough!
After all it was the devil that caused Eve to become discontent. If He can create a spirit of discontentment in Eve, who should’ve by all accounts been completely content in every possible way, then why should I ever be surprised that He is trying to constantly do the same to me!
5. He wants me to grow me.
Well, he always want this for us. But experience has proven that in those “difficult” moments, I grow the most. I know it’s absolutely because it’s when I seek Him the most, with my WHOLE heart!
I’ve found that, often times, the things we can’t change…. end up changing us!! Thankful for the continued journey of learning to be content IN HIM!!